Sunday, June 28, 2009
God's letter

Today's message spoke to me & I really thank God for it. Hope I can put them into practise.

There are 3 main points to today's message:

1. We are the letter...

• 2 Cor 3:1-3
• We are open letters, to be read & not to be concealed; living testimony.
• And there's something written in our hearts. In order for this thing to be written, it means it must be carved. And carving is a painful process.

2. ... with a message...

• 2 Cor 5:17-20
• Reconciliation (the message) only takes place through action.
• With self & with God.

3. ... with a method of delivery.

• 2 Cor 6:3-10
• These verses mentioned the different types of method of delivering a message--physical distress, mental anguish, abiding commitment, in, 'in Christ' conduct and with failures.
• But at the end of the day, we have to bear in mind that we are to be a witness for God.

Friday, June 19, 2009
My mini retreat with God

I'm on a retreat today! Supposed to spend my 2 to 6 pm with God but my attention span only lasted about 2 hours. But God has been gracious to me. Did praise & worship, prayers, followed by reading part of a reading material.

Some pointers from the reading material that keeps me thinking:

• "Extra cargo" are "things we hang on to until a storm exposes how they are sinking us."
• "To survive a storm you get busy with the things that really matter--and those "things" are usually people! With all the pressures to achieve and accomplish, the people we love can slowly get pushed to the corners of our lives."
• "It usually takes a storm to restore our values."
• "If the storm blows you back to them [people], you have all you really need. You can always find another ship [thing]."

Keeps me thinking... Hmm... Pray that I'll get my answers real soon. :)

Sunday, June 14, 2009
Some of the similarities we have freak me out.. :)

I can't explain or understand this but I have quite a few similarities with this 'new guy' I've met. These are what I can remember at this point of time:

• Christian
• Love singing
• Love music
• Impatient
• Read in the loo
• Have some Peranakan lineage
• Have the Teochew-Hokkien crisis (LOL!)
• Don't eat squids
• Like durians
• Love pickles
• Dislike soy milk
• Like white onions (I didn't tell you 'cos it was freaky!)
• Hate almost all kinds of mushrooms except button mushrooms (I freaked out, really)

Okay, I cannot recall already... I's just freaky, especially the last two!

Thursday, June 04, 2009
Can 'like' be reasoned?

I think somehow it can, and here is why. It's always my prayer to have someone:

• older
• who always points me back to God
• I can talk about anything & everything
• who have similar interests

Okay, these are a few that come across my mind at this point of time... You asked me if I was on a rebound, I'm 70% sure I'm not. I don't know about that 30%. I don't know what you're thinking & I'm afraid to know. I don't dare to say it, so I'm just blogging about it. Even blogging this is not so that you'll see it, but I just need to air it out. I know you'll see it someday. One thing I can assure you that no matter what, you'll still have this friend.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Super upset!

I'm extremely upset with myself!

• Feel so inefficient & unproductive
• Feel that I'm trap & can't move to where I want
• Feel irritated because of the above
• Feel like dumping everything & shut off for a day... which is so impossible (my emails will still flood)

:( :( :( :'( :''( :'''''''(

Wednesday, May 27, 2009
27 May 2008, 6.14am

Despite all my phobias, I verbally vomitted... Despite asking God for signs, I took my own step. I don't expect much, just a reply...

Tuesday, May 26, 2009
The reason for the reminder

Sunday was a significant day, I'd say.

Firstly, the message preached was about Abraham being a father a faith. It was never easy for Abraham but because of his encounter with God--God providing Isaac at his old age--that he really believe 'My God can do all things'. Like us, Abraham struggled; he doubted. But he pressed on & chose to believe.

Next, I went for a foot reflexology treatment after church. Interestingly, God planted this lady who did the treatment for me a topic to talk about. She spoke about Christianity. She is a Buddhist. From our conversation, she really respects Christians. I shared with her a little on how God is a God of grace and how real God can be. But my Mandarin is limited; I hope she understood what I meant.

From these 2 incidents, I believe God is teaching me to look back & remember His goodness. Life's journey is never smooth & right now, I'm seriously thinking why do I toil so much when I (still) have no idea why God put me there for. But one thing's for sure, & He wants me to remember: that He was there to bring me through & He will do the same. Well, I know it's easier said than done, it will be another thing to press on & choose to believe.

Lord, I know You never fail to hear the cry of my heart. Help me, Lord. Help me to press on & believe that You will see me through, that You will send help when I'm sinking. Help my little faith & bring me to the next level You want me to be. Help me to drown in You. In Jesus' name. Amen.