Sunday, February 10, 2008
My soul finds 安息in the Lord

I enjoyed the CNY service today. Pastor Jeffrey preached greatly! Praise God for that.

Thank God for speaking to me through the message. Indeed, I need to find not only rest, but peaceful rest (安息) in the Lord. I've been wanting to let it all down & let God take charge of the every areas in my life. Yes, finally during the altar call, I've laid it down! I felt the relief, the liberation in my soul... Who else can I thank but God for that. He's been reminding me to fix my eyes on Him, the Author & Perfecter of my faith (see Heb 12:2).

God said it's a moulding process for me. It's not only about him, but also my studies & the other areas in life. But I guess the biggest burden that troubled me was him. I mean, yes, I will still think of him from time to time, but I'm embracing it in a different manner. In fact, I'm letting God to do what He wants... Yup, like the song below goes, "I'm gonna let it be/I'm gonna let it go/I'm gonna lay it down."

Who else know me better than my Daddy God. Just felt so loved. He reminded me that I'm able to walk through the storm & still be dry (which was prophesied on me two years back) & told me He's preparing me for something greater.

Lord, I am nothing near perfection but thank You for loving me for who I am & shaping me into what You've planned. Things will come to past when Your perfect timing comes. I want to find satisfaction in the state I'm in now, yet at the same time, yearning for more divine dissatisfaction... More & more of You in my life. May You be honoured through it all. In Jesus' name. Amen!

Lay It Down -- Jaci Velasquez

I've been lookin' till my eyes are tired of lookin'
Listenin' till my ears are numb from listenin'
Prayin' till my knees are sore from kneelin' on the bedroom floor
I know that You know that my heart is achin'
I'm running out of tears and my will is breakin'
I don't think that I can carry the burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are slowly slippin' through my folded hands

So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Cause everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go
I'm gonna lay it down

I've been walkin' through this world like I'm barely livin'
Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been diggin'
But You're pullin' me out
I'm finally breathin' in the open air
This room may be dark but I'm finally seein'
There's a new ray of hope, and now I'm believin'
That the past is past, and the future's beginning to look brighter now
Oh, cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands

So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
Oh what else can I do
Cause everthing I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go
I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna lay it down