Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thinking out loud

Going to think out loud & reflect on this post (thinking out loud is what I'm learning at work :) ).

Well, it's the matters of the heart. After hearing today's sermon on Renewing Your Heart, I kind of decided to seriously consider what I'm going through now. It seems clear, but it is ambiguous at the same time. So I'm really 'struggling' too. I don't know what plans God have for me or us in this relationship, that is, friendship. I'm that kind of person who doesn't like to drag things which are ambiguous on & on & on. Then again, this relationship is not in any of our control. It's God's. So, when God seems so quiet about it, I really don't know what I should do. Maybe God is telling me to stop 'doing' & just let things go easy. If this is so, it is my heart that I must tame. This seems worse than being in a relationship because I can't do anything about it. Ya, not for me to control after all.

I guess at the point of time, I'll just let it be & do nothing? I guess this is the best I can do for myself & let God handle it. God has been good. Like what the common meaning & verse tagged on my name says, "Biblically, meaning: Filled with grace; 'Surely goodness & mercy shall follow me all the days of my life & I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever.'" (Psalm 23:6)", my life has, indeed, been so filled with the grace of God. What more can I ask? What more should I be unsatisfied?

Thank You, Daddy God. I'm laying this at Your feet. Take charge; take control...